Something like...

An old pond
A frog jumps in -
the sound of water.


"Well of course if a frog jumps into the water, there's going to be a noise". Is that your reaction to those eleven words and a hyphen? Well, then you simply have no feeling for haiku. Please do not mistake me, I don't say that; It is Akira Kurosawa. At last, after dabbling for a few weeks, I am through with Something like an autobiography by Kurosawa. Rashomon (1950, Jap) comes to most of our minds on hearing the word Kurosawa. Interestingly, in this book Kurosawsa has told his own story starting right from his childhood and ending it with the making of Rashomon. However he continued to make films as late as early nineties. I am not an expert on film making or the history of world cinema, but I have been impressed by Kurosawa's films like Dersu Uzala(1975) and Ran (1985). Needless to mention Rashomon. Andha Naal (1954, Tam, S.Balachander), one of the greatest performances of Sivaji Ganesan ever, follows a similar script as Rashomon. The plot is simple. It is something like the game Chinese whispers that we would have played at some point of time or the other. It is about how a same event takes amusingly different forms when coloured, consciously or unconsciously, by the perceptions and motives of the individuals who report it. (Sorry....I could not make that sentence simpler!! I think I am yet to recover from the hangover of yesterday's Income Tax Act test.) Virumaandi (2004, Tam, Kamal Hassan) also belongs to the same genre of story telling. 

The day just before the shooting was about to start, the three assistant directors Daiei had assigned me came to see me at the inn where I was staying. I wondered what the problem could be. It turned out that they found the script baffling and wanted me to explain it to them. "Please read it again more carefully," I told them. "If you read it diligently, you should be able to understand it because it was written with the intention of being comprehensible." But they wouldn't leave.  "We believe we have read it carefully, and we still don't understand it at all; that's why we want you to explain it to us."

I was horrified as well curious at the same time while reading that para from the book. Horrified - as I imagined myself to be Kurosawa for a moment; Just a day before the shoot and the assistants saying something like that! Curious - to know Kurosawa's explanation for that. Rashomon went on to win many awards including the Oscar for Best foreign language film. The film's recognition the world over was like "pouring water into the sleeping ears of the Japanese film industry."

Some verses from the book that make me smile...

Cheerful on the way there,
Fearful on the way home.

(Lyrics of a song from his directorial debut Sugata Sanshiro, 1942.)

On the mountaintop
water appears
and tumbles down.

(When  I first read it, I was struck with amazement. It was apparently a poem by an amateur, but I felt as if its pure, clear vision and simple, straightforward expression had hit me over the head. My affection for my own poems, which were no more than words lined up and twisted around in different ways, dried up completely. - Kurosawa)

We sing thanks for our teacher's kindness,
We have honored and revered...
.. After the years, met daily as brothers and sisters,
You go on..
..In the gleam of fireflies.

(A few lines from his school graduation day)

Kurosawa talks about a lot of people in his autobiography but film director Yamamoto Kajiro, whom Kurosawa describes as the best teacher of my entire life,  takes away the largest share. The next biggest impact on Kurosawa was probably by his elder brother about whom Kurosawa says ...But I prefer to think of my brother as a negative strip of film that led to my own development as a positive image. 

Specifically, the last few pages where Kurosawa tells us about film-making are worth a dozen reads. Cinema resembles so many other arts. If cinema has very literary characteristics, it also has theatrical qualities, a philosophical side, attributes of painting and sculpture and musical elements. But cinema is, in the final analysis, cinema. - AK

[By the way, this post is by no means a book review. 
It is rather Something like a book review.
And thanks to Anish cheta for gifting me this book]

Status Quo - 2

I plan to write something about "how to handle extreme rumour pressure" very soon. As most of you know I have been in the eye of the Civil Service Exam storm for the past one month or so. For others let me explain what I meant - a national-scale rumour about the CSE results has been doing rounds for the past many weeks. It went to that extent that my colleagues here even wanted to have a photo session with me based on that rumour. Sundar/Rajan has topped this year's CSE. That was the rumour! Over the past few weeks not even a single day passed in my life without at least five people congratulating me for topping the exam. Such people also called me from diverse geographies like Chennai, Delhi etc. Most of them would also add, "Topping IAS exams is in your family genes", referring to my elder brother's feat a few years back. A few of them also concluded that IAS Rank.1 is a family property. And over the past four-five days the number of callers and the people who congratulate me had only increased. Some of them came to me and even said the marks I had (apparently) scored in the Mains and the Interview, with great authority. 

Combined with the speculation about the actual date of the results, my life was quite peculiar. Things reached the zenith today before dying out at about 4 in the evening. But overall I enjoyed the process. It made me learn a lot about people - individuals and groups. I will talk more on this later on a post fully dedicated to rumour - and rumour only. But for a very few people belonging to my inner circle, no one actually knows the adventures I undertook, the dreams I chased - after taking the prelims exam, last year. Looking back I'm quite happy about the way things turned out. But even in that little inner circle many actually expected some truth in that rumour. I'm terribly sorry for them, and really grateful to them for placing such a high level of confidence in my capabilities. Or is it their lack of confidence in the Exam system? I guess it was a blend of both.

I have been laughing away this rumour since the day it reached my ears for the first time. Also from some corner of my mind, Dr.Gopalakrishnan's (ED, Tata Sons) quote always flashed within me. It goes like this - Deserve before you desire. [Something more fundamental to that is - One should want something in the first place. Only after that deserve/desire rule sets in] No no...don't worry, am not trying to be philosophical. I generally believe in cause-effect and usually do not subscribe to destiny/fate etc. Probably had I got the Rank as per rumours I would have started believing in destiny etc. I am happy now. I had full faith in myself and I'm happy that I was able to uphold that faith. I genuinely believed that for the kind of treatment I meted out to the Mains exam this time, even getting the interview call was a great bonus for me; leave alone Topping the exam.  And I would have really got confused with my career, again!

I'm happy that I have not betrayed myself; My belief in myself; 
My belief that I do not deserve anything, as I did not want anything this time.

I'm also happy that no one can be a Topper just by some miracle.

Now, let me resume the Debit/Credit lessons!

Status Quo

Pune, July 2002.

Personal Account: Debit the receiver/Credit the giver
Real Account: Debit what comes in/Credit what goes out
Nominal Account: Debit all expenses or losses/Credit all incomes or gains

Nagpur, May 2009.

Personal Account: Debit the receiver/Credit the giver
Real Account: Debit what comes in/Credit what goes out
Nominal Account: Debit all expenses or losses/Credit all incomes or gains

Well, that is the surface-level summary of my life over the past couple of years. I'm still fighting it out with the Golden rules of accounting, as I did over seven years back. In between, many things like soda ash, Kolkata, geography, psychology, Mussourie, modern Indian history, Lalitpur, many exams, Prasad Studios etc have happened in my life...but the status of "studying/under training" remains unaffected. Unfazed. "I'm sure even after a year you will be getting trained or studying something somewhere", that's what Mayur told me this evening. Mayur is heading the sales function of western India (comprising of 4-5 states) for a leading sports apparel brand. We had shared a room for a year from July, 2002 during my MBA days. After passing out in 2004, over the past five years, he had gained an impressive work experience in sales and marketing with the leading brands like Airtel and Samsung. He has also helped his dad set up an edible oil factory and business. Also, my dear cousin brother who was in Class VIII-IX during my MBA is about to complete his BE degree in a year.

My accountancy book is still open. I have to start studying ledger posting in a while. We have some tests coming up soon. I will also be doing a bit of the Income Tax Act 2008 tomorrow. (Wow!! It is a great way to spend a Sunday... you may also try)



I am waiting for my third attempt result. Nothing else has changed drastically. Of course, I have gained a lot of patience over the past two years and am very well able to focus on the job at hand.

Personal Account: Debit the receiver/Credit the giver
Real Account: Debit what comes in/Credit what goes out
Nominal Account: Debit all expenses or losses/Credit all incomes or gains

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